"Everybody's got a dark side. Do you love me? Can you love mine?"

I'm a very blunt person, it's just a fact of my life. My best friend reminds me of this constantly by going, "Sara, Filter!!!" This usually happens right after I accidentally blurt out one of our quirks in front of her boyfriend. 

I haven't always been this way. In fact, I was the shyest and quietest person when I was in elementary school. This however was before I learned about boys. No, I didn't go to an all girls school as a kid, I just thought boys had cooties.

Just F.Y.I, they don't.

I didn't learn this until 7th grade though. That was when I realized I liked Andy. 

Oh Andy. He's tall, blonde, gorgeous in my eyes, and those dimples! ^^

He and I have been friends since we were 7. That's the thing about having guy friends in elementary school, you don't realize that they're actually boys until you go through puberty. 

Oh how I hate that word but for lack of a better one, I guess I must use it.

Anyway, back to me being an incredibly blunt human being.

I tend to say what I think... all of the time. This is not usually such a bad thing in moderation, but when it happens a lot... you tend to get in trouble.

I am still that shy sweet little girl sometimes, don't get me wrong, but when it comes to boys the filter between my brain and my mouth gets a little bit mixed up.

This brings me back to my dimpled best friend. In the 7th grade, I decided to tell him how I felt about him (That he was absolutely amazing and studly, just in case you were wondering) You can pretty much guess where the story goes from here, he didn't feel the same way and I was crushed but I learned a very valuable lesson that day. It was okay that I had spoke my mind, I wasn't afraid of what people might think anymore. So this is kind of a re-occuring trend with me now. I can't keep my mouth shut whenever I like a boy.

See this? ^^ This is basically me when I like someone and the sad part is that there's nothing the boy can do to stop the words from coming out.

Maybe I should invest in some duct tape

-The Filter-less girly

Friends listen to what you say, Best friends listen to what you don't have to say

Everyone needs a best friend I promise. I don't care if you're a teenager, middle-aged man, grandma, hippo, or polar bear. I believe with everything I have that people were never meant to be alone in this world. That's why we each have unique personalities, so that we can find the person that fits with our chemical make-up perfectly.

 If you haven't guessed by now, I have a best friend, un compadre, a perfect match, a yin to my yang... you get the point. I love my Mo with everything I have, sometimes I don't even think she realizes how much I do. I guess the thing about best friends though, is that we fight. And when I say fight I mean we sometimes really go at it. It hurts for a while, sometimes the cuts are too deep to heal right away. Honestly though, I would rather be able to talk through things with her than never be able to talk about anything real. I can talk to her about absolutely anything and everything and I know we'll work through it. 

What do you do though, when you are being replaced in your best friend's life? You weep uncontrollably, cry, okay sob.. a lot. And the hardest part of the crying is that she's the one you would normally go to when you're crying. But this time it's about her, so you can't. How can you tell her that you feel replaced... by a boy... friend. Boyfriend. I love him I really do and I couldn't be happier for her. This guy, he is absolutely perfect for her. You know how they say some people just complete someone else? Well, he completes her. They are amazing together, I love seeing her so happy because she's been through a lot of jerks to get where she is. We're slipping though.. she and I. Our relationship isn't as strong and something always seems to upset us. I have tried to become friends with him to try to feel like a less of a third wheel and it was working but now... that won't work, it's annoying. 

But the thing is... I love her. And he's awesome too. So i will last as long as I need to, be friends and not over-step my boundaries, and be there when either of them needs me. My life is happy and content right now, i refuse to mess that up! :)

All my love
-Sar Bear

Is that not the winning team? Yes, that is the winning team!

College Life. What can I even say to describe it? Last night I went up to USU to stay with my two favorite cousins and may I say.. it was a Party! For those people who have never seen a Utah State basketball game, well you are missing out big time. The fans have a reputation for being the meanest and scariest of fans in the wild wild west. (Okay, maybe that's an exaggeration but still, the concept applies)

Any who I love my cousins and I miss them while they're off at college. So, I decided to go up to Logan to pay them a visit. I forget how hilarious they are, I really do. See, my cousins and I have this strange and unique sense of humor that only we can understand. We can be sitting in a room and laugh hysterically until tears are rolling down our cheeks and no one else in the room will ever understand why we're laughing. We have always been really close but we've gotten closer as we've gotten older because the three year age difference doesn't seem so scary now.