"If you asked me how I'm doing, I would say I'm doing just fine. I would lie and say that you're not on my mind"

Ok, lets just get it out there, girls are very seemingly very complex creatures.

Don't deny it, just nod your head and

There's no mistaking when a girl has confused a guy beyond his wits. Some of the symptoms include:

1. His eyebrows will knit together as he looks after her or re-reads her last text
2. He'll look around the room for any explanation whatsoever
3. If he's desperate, he'll go to her best friend for help.
4. He'll text her and try to fix things.
5. And eventually, he'll apologize without knowing what he did.

I'm sorry, but honestly, guys sometimes have no idea what will set girls off. I mean really it's not that hard. And this is why there is a female dictionary to show guys what girls really mean.

See? not that hard! Girls just basically mean the exact opposite of what they say. I guess that's the golden rule. Although, there are exceptions to every rule... Ok I take it back, girls really are hard to understand. I'm so sorry guys that you have to put up with our mood swings and drama. But hey, on the bright side, we smell nice, are soft, and will cuddle up with you on the couch..

I'll try to be a little less complicated.

-The average complicated teenage girl ;-)

"I ain’t gonna stress, because the worst ain’t happened yet. Something's watching over me, like Sweet Serendipity"

Apparently today is one of THOSE days. 
You know the days I'm talking about, the ones where your day is okay but then something happens and it basically cancels out anything good that has happened throughout the day.

Don't get me wrong, I love my life. 
It's amazing I mean really I live in sheltered Utah, I have zero room to complain. But sometimes, I just need a moment to wallow in my own self pity... Lovely isn't it?
But I guess a life lesson is that all good things must come to some kind of ending. 
I've been at my happiest lately. I mean REALLY happy. Unnaturally happy even.

 But all of that came to a screeching halt today when Aladdin's magic happy carpet was pulled out from under my feet. See this? ^^ That was me these past two weeks. Granted I'm way more modest, but you get the idea. 
I really hate being a downer on here but tonight, I need to I guess. 
Isn't life so much easier when you understand why things happen. 

I'm obsessed with the word

I'm almost positive that everything happens for a reason and if it does then why is "WHY" so hard to answer. 
I guess that sometimes there aren't answers to everything in life. 
That's part of the beauty and the magic of it all. 
I'm a perfectionist and OCD by nature but sometimes even I can understand why there are things in life that can't be explained. 
One of my favorite words in the english language is the word Serendipity. 
I love it because of its meaning: Making a discovery by accident. 
It never says if these discoveries are good or not but I guess we'll wait and see. Things will be explained soon I hope. 
But for now I'm going to enjoy every second of this confusing life that I have been given.


I promise I'm not usually this depressing.
- Putting the Sara in Serendipity.

Strangeness and Charm

It's that time of year at my school... No not flu season, finals, or even Christmas. It's time for Winter Cotillion, a magical dance for girls and a dreaded event for most boys. 

As if they weren't clueless enough already, boys don't understand that it takes time to find a dress, shoes, and to figure out the little details. 

My best friend's boyfriend is dragging his feet about asking her and I've tried to explain that you have to go through this...

To get this...

If the male species only knew what women go through just to look good for them. 
Between the plucking, drying, painting, brushing, poking, prodding, waxing, dying, zipping, clipping, clasping, and tying, it gets tiring.
 Only after all of this has been accomplished is when we realize that we'll be lucky if they even notice that we're wearing make-up. 
That's okay though because I think some small part of us does it just for us. Because we feel better about ourselves and know that we do look amazing even if we're the only ones that know it. 
One day they'll look back at the pictures and think "Wow, she really was beautiful that night.." 
But for now, girls are here to keep each other sane when we don't get the recognition that we want ;)

All dressed up with somewhere to go

-Assumsion

"Everybody's got a dark side. Do you love me? Can you love mine?"

I'm a very blunt person, it's just a fact of my life. My best friend reminds me of this constantly by going, "Sara, Filter!!!" This usually happens right after I accidentally blurt out one of our quirks in front of her boyfriend. 

I haven't always been this way. In fact, I was the shyest and quietest person when I was in elementary school. This however was before I learned about boys. No, I didn't go to an all girls school as a kid, I just thought boys had cooties.

Just F.Y.I, they don't.

I didn't learn this until 7th grade though. That was when I realized I liked Andy. 

Oh Andy. He's tall, blonde, gorgeous in my eyes, and those dimples! ^^

He and I have been friends since we were 7. That's the thing about having guy friends in elementary school, you don't realize that they're actually boys until you go through puberty. 

Oh how I hate that word but for lack of a better one, I guess I must use it.

Anyway, back to me being an incredibly blunt human being.

I tend to say what I think... all of the time. This is not usually such a bad thing in moderation, but when it happens a lot... you tend to get in trouble.

I am still that shy sweet little girl sometimes, don't get me wrong, but when it comes to boys the filter between my brain and my mouth gets a little bit mixed up.

This brings me back to my dimpled best friend. In the 7th grade, I decided to tell him how I felt about him (That he was absolutely amazing and studly, just in case you were wondering) You can pretty much guess where the story goes from here, he didn't feel the same way and I was crushed but I learned a very valuable lesson that day. It was okay that I had spoke my mind, I wasn't afraid of what people might think anymore. So this is kind of a re-occuring trend with me now. I can't keep my mouth shut whenever I like a boy.

See this? ^^ This is basically me when I like someone and the sad part is that there's nothing the boy can do to stop the words from coming out.

Maybe I should invest in some duct tape

-The Filter-less girly

Friends listen to what you say, Best friends listen to what you don't have to say

Everyone needs a best friend I promise. I don't care if you're a teenager, middle-aged man, grandma, hippo, or polar bear. I believe with everything I have that people were never meant to be alone in this world. That's why we each have unique personalities, so that we can find the person that fits with our chemical make-up perfectly.

 If you haven't guessed by now, I have a best friend, un compadre, a perfect match, a yin to my yang... you get the point. I love my Mo with everything I have, sometimes I don't even think she realizes how much I do. I guess the thing about best friends though, is that we fight. And when I say fight I mean we sometimes really go at it. It hurts for a while, sometimes the cuts are too deep to heal right away. Honestly though, I would rather be able to talk through things with her than never be able to talk about anything real. I can talk to her about absolutely anything and everything and I know we'll work through it. 

What do you do though, when you are being replaced in your best friend's life? You weep uncontrollably, cry, okay sob.. a lot. And the hardest part of the crying is that she's the one you would normally go to when you're crying. But this time it's about her, so you can't. How can you tell her that you feel replaced... by a boy... friend. Boyfriend. I love him I really do and I couldn't be happier for her. This guy, he is absolutely perfect for her. You know how they say some people just complete someone else? Well, he completes her. They are amazing together, I love seeing her so happy because she's been through a lot of jerks to get where she is. We're slipping though.. she and I. Our relationship isn't as strong and something always seems to upset us. I have tried to become friends with him to try to feel like a less of a third wheel and it was working but now... that won't work, it's annoying. 

But the thing is... I love her. And he's awesome too. So i will last as long as I need to, be friends and not over-step my boundaries, and be there when either of them needs me. My life is happy and content right now, i refuse to mess that up! :)

All my love
-Sar Bear

Is that not the winning team? Yes, that is the winning team!

College Life. What can I even say to describe it? Last night I went up to USU to stay with my two favorite cousins and may I say.. it was a Party! For those people who have never seen a Utah State basketball game, well you are missing out big time. The fans have a reputation for being the meanest and scariest of fans in the wild wild west. (Okay, maybe that's an exaggeration but still, the concept applies)

Any who I love my cousins and I miss them while they're off at college. So, I decided to go up to Logan to pay them a visit. I forget how hilarious they are, I really do. See, my cousins and I have this strange and unique sense of humor that only we can understand. We can be sitting in a room and laugh hysterically until tears are rolling down our cheeks and no one else in the room will ever understand why we're laughing. We have always been really close but we've gotten closer as we've gotten older because the three year age difference doesn't seem so scary now.